Has Been Like A Rollercoaster.
It started at church first thing this morning. Two people were down each other's throats.
The Church service was great. The Message was rough, but it was straight from the Bible and was something I/we needed to hear.
Our family decided to go out for lunch - and that was a very good decision! That was the best moments of the day!
When we got home, we discovered there were several phone calls from my place of work, and a call from my Mom. I listened to the messages and called Mom back. They called from work to see if I'd go in. If I didn't go in, Mom would have to go back after a 2 hour break and close. That'd be 7am-2pm and 4pm-9pm. I take Sundays off because I am involved in church - that was our reason for moving to this town in the first place. So, the whole thing made me angry because I knew that Mom would have to work 12 hours since I didn't go in. Not fair. Working with family sucks sometimes.
Mom went on to tell me a couple of things that she was 'concerned' about regarding our children - mostly Sally. That irritated me. It was things that really didn't have to worry her and cause the concern that she put forth. I wanted to say so much to her in response, but I didn't. I do respect my Mom and her opinions and I didn't want to say something I'd regret.
Around 4pm, I tried to have a nap. I put my earphones in one ear and laid on the couch. I dozed for 10 minutes and the kids came wanting something. About 10 minutes later, my husband came in grumping about something. So, a nap really didn't happen. I got up off the couch in a very foul mood and freaked out on my husband. I was just so tired from lack of sleep on Friday night (3.5 hours). After I loaded the dishwasher I calmed down and went to my husband and said I was sorry. All was forgiven.
I decided to call my father - my biological one. I haven't talked to him much lately, so I figured I may as well give him a call and see how things are going. He recently moved to another town, so I was wondering how he was doing. We had a beautiful conversation. When he told me that he loves me, it hit a different way than ever before. I could somehow sense his genuineness. We talked about God (!!) and that God has done a great work in my marriage. He said that I must be praying for him lots - that's amazing.
When we hung up, I started to cry. I haven't cried after talking to him for some time now, but I did today. My BFF thinks it's because I have changed so much in the past little while that I am more sensitive and open to what the Holy Spirit is saying to me - to hear more that just words.
I've had such spiritual growth in the past little while that I sometimes feel like I can't contain it.
(side note) Remember how I've been searching so desperately for my 'place' in this new town? Well, I've battled with it for about about 4 months. My BFF wouldn't tell me what my gifts are - he wanted me to listen to God for them myself. My BFF said I have 2 predominent gifts that just flow totally naturally out of me - so natural that I couldn't even see them in myself. We took the youth out of town this weekend, and I had reached the end of my rope with trying to figure out what my gifts are. My BFF and I sat down during the movie and we talked for about 3 hours straight. And, he told me what my gifts are - and they do flow naturally from me - I didn't see one of them at all, the other one I had a feeling about but I kept doubting it.
There's so much I could write about that conversation and the revelation, but I won't - for now. The awesome thing is that I now have PURPOSE and PASSION for this town and for what God wants me to do - something I haven't had before. I am EXCITED about what HE is going to do through me.
Anyway, when I went to Church tonight, I went and got a hug from my BFF right away and had a little chat with him. It's amazing how he helps me understand things and put it into perspective. I am so blessed to have him in my life.
The study tonight was really good. I enjoy our Sunday evening meeting so much. My friend and I led worship and I enjoyed it. By the end of the night, I ws feeling good. THEN, it happened...
Someone criticized our children / our parenting skills. I got angry and had to leave. I took the kids and walked across to the Corner Store. I haven't totally worked through this one yet, but it cerainly was not what I needed to hear after such a roller coaster day.
Now, I sit on the couch, SOOOO ready for sleep. I'm so tired. And, that's where I'm going. I have lots to ponder from today's/this weekend's events. I have to fit them into some category.
I am thankful to be where I am with the people I am with. God knows what He's doing.
It started at church first thing this morning. Two people were down each other's throats.
The Church service was great. The Message was rough, but it was straight from the Bible and was something I/we needed to hear.
Our family decided to go out for lunch - and that was a very good decision! That was the best moments of the day!
When we got home, we discovered there were several phone calls from my place of work, and a call from my Mom. I listened to the messages and called Mom back. They called from work to see if I'd go in. If I didn't go in, Mom would have to go back after a 2 hour break and close. That'd be 7am-2pm and 4pm-9pm. I take Sundays off because I am involved in church - that was our reason for moving to this town in the first place. So, the whole thing made me angry because I knew that Mom would have to work 12 hours since I didn't go in. Not fair. Working with family sucks sometimes.
Mom went on to tell me a couple of things that she was 'concerned' about regarding our children - mostly Sally. That irritated me. It was things that really didn't have to worry her and cause the concern that she put forth. I wanted to say so much to her in response, but I didn't. I do respect my Mom and her opinions and I didn't want to say something I'd regret.
Around 4pm, I tried to have a nap. I put my earphones in one ear and laid on the couch. I dozed for 10 minutes and the kids came wanting something. About 10 minutes later, my husband came in grumping about something. So, a nap really didn't happen. I got up off the couch in a very foul mood and freaked out on my husband. I was just so tired from lack of sleep on Friday night (3.5 hours). After I loaded the dishwasher I calmed down and went to my husband and said I was sorry. All was forgiven.
I decided to call my father - my biological one. I haven't talked to him much lately, so I figured I may as well give him a call and see how things are going. He recently moved to another town, so I was wondering how he was doing. We had a beautiful conversation. When he told me that he loves me, it hit a different way than ever before. I could somehow sense his genuineness. We talked about God (!!) and that God has done a great work in my marriage. He said that I must be praying for him lots - that's amazing.
When we hung up, I started to cry. I haven't cried after talking to him for some time now, but I did today. My BFF thinks it's because I have changed so much in the past little while that I am more sensitive and open to what the Holy Spirit is saying to me - to hear more that just words.
I've had such spiritual growth in the past little while that I sometimes feel like I can't contain it.
(side note) Remember how I've been searching so desperately for my 'place' in this new town? Well, I've battled with it for about about 4 months. My BFF wouldn't tell me what my gifts are - he wanted me to listen to God for them myself. My BFF said I have 2 predominent gifts that just flow totally naturally out of me - so natural that I couldn't even see them in myself. We took the youth out of town this weekend, and I had reached the end of my rope with trying to figure out what my gifts are. My BFF and I sat down during the movie and we talked for about 3 hours straight. And, he told me what my gifts are - and they do flow naturally from me - I didn't see one of them at all, the other one I had a feeling about but I kept doubting it.
There's so much I could write about that conversation and the revelation, but I won't - for now. The awesome thing is that I now have PURPOSE and PASSION for this town and for what God wants me to do - something I haven't had before. I am EXCITED about what HE is going to do through me.
Anyway, when I went to Church tonight, I went and got a hug from my BFF right away and had a little chat with him. It's amazing how he helps me understand things and put it into perspective. I am so blessed to have him in my life.
The study tonight was really good. I enjoy our Sunday evening meeting so much. My friend and I led worship and I enjoyed it. By the end of the night, I ws feeling good. THEN, it happened...
Someone criticized our children / our parenting skills. I got angry and had to leave. I took the kids and walked across to the Corner Store. I haven't totally worked through this one yet, but it cerainly was not what I needed to hear after such a roller coaster day.
Now, I sit on the couch, SOOOO ready for sleep. I'm so tired. And, that's where I'm going. I have lots to ponder from today's/this weekend's events. I have to fit them into some category.
I am thankful to be where I am with the people I am with. God knows what He's doing.
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